SAVE ME. NOW

Nobody knows where the night goes. Nobody knows where the morning comes from. But everyone knows that you and I are here today to send the night and meet the morning of our salvation together. Because you hold in yourself a bit of my salvation. And your morning depends on me.

You and I are the main opposition here and now. You are a god, a beloved, an enemy, a hangman, a sacrifice, a friend, a neighbor, a martyr, a saint, a mother, and achild. You are the catalyst of my change.

I am the consciousness of the world. I am the traveling consciousness that changes its forms and faces. A traveling consciousness that reflects the diversity of the space energy. I am a goddess, a beloved, an enemy, a hangman, a sacrifice, a friend, a neighbor, a martyr, a saint, a mother, a child. I am the free consciousness, unlimited by dogmas and ideologies.

You are my mirror. You are the one for whom I change. You are my catalyst for spiritual uplift and fall. Without you I do not know who I am. Without me you do not know who you are. Without you, I am a lonely lost consciousness that has fled from the source in search of meaning.

You help me to walk in the way of meaning, showing my different faces. You have a lot to give me. I can make your sense of guilt insignificant. You can ease the burden of my suffering. The pain from birth. The pain of the first cry I greet life with. You can ease the pain of my broken heart. If you want, you will not even break my heart. You and I can accept the pain of the meeting death with dignity.

You can do so that the distances do not separate the love. And I can promise you that I will go around the whole earth to find the seeds of my love for you. I will seek the love wherever it lives. Everywhere the sun rises to meet the morning. I will seek the love everywhere to give you the morning. To give you hope and salvation.

  You can promise me to keep your love for me in a safe place in your heart. Find a little hidden place and keep it from storms and encroachments. Do not give up your love for me, take care of it every day, water it with heavenly rain, and nourish it with sunrays and morning dew from fresh herbs. And if there is a day of doubt as to whether you need this love, because such a test day will surely come, then you have to fight for your love for me. Even if I am not there, even without hope, do not let your heart to cool, because it will be the end. And I, and you we live for this dream love. Because of it, we are ready for great victories and   changes. It is the sad inspiration that moves our little lives. Without this dream love there is no salvation. So let us dream about each other.

Save me now. Save me right away. Not later. Then it will be too late. Late and unnecessary. I need you to save me now. So my heart does not cool. To reduce my pain. To remind me how we should love. To make me believe in me, in you, in us, in man again. Because I am raising you on a pedestal and you have to deserve it.

Save me now, when my heart is your captive. But you think too much about yourself. You think about how my love gives you aureole and glory. You think you are important, something that grows from my attention.

You say you are not a god, and that is an impossible task for you. You say you cannot save me, and you leave indifferent. Because, according to you, my salvation is my personal battle. You insist on staying on your lonely island, where you stay in solitude to keep your love for yourself. So human mistakes and meetings do not tempt you. You decided to disappear before you physically disappear from the face of the ground. You yourself need a salvation, and I am burdening you with my drama.

So what do we do then? You and me? Two lonely souls, filled with disappointment and sadness. If I disappear, you are the one who will remain. If you disappear, I am the one who will remain. Do not you understand that we are connected? And that from the material of our lonely islands we have to make boats to sail towards each other to find ourselves. To find each other in the ocean of human hatred and love.

Because You and I we are the main opposition. You and I is before We and You, as many. You and I define the world as it should be. I mirror myself in you. You mirror yourself in me. You and I, we mirror ourselves in Him before we consider any change.

I is above all. I is a development, an intellect, a harmony, a loneliness. You are the balance, the equilibrium, the dialogue and the love. He is the salvation and the divine love. We are the kind that survives despite everything.

And when my boat meets yours and our little worlds touch, the universe will be saved. And love as the only hope will embrace me and you and will lift us up.

Save me now. My spiritual rise and fall depend on you and on Him. Do not leave this for tomorrow. Because tomorrow our instincts for salvation may be dead. Today, everyone still holds a part of the other's salvation.

Save me. Now. Save me now, Love.

(Elena S. Lyubenova)