The thought of being mortal hurts the most. The thought of being alone in the universe is unbearable. The thought that love will sooner or later come to an end and disappear brings us closer to death than anything else. What can we do to stop time from passing so ruthlessly fast? Tell us what to do.
I tried to forget about my mortality through love. But it made me a slave to thoughts of you and took away my freedom. Freedom stands above everything else. And I want to be free. To be close to you.
I tried to find oblivion in the beauty around me. But, painfully, I discovered that beauty too is mortal. We become accustomed to beauty, and it no longer seems so beautiful. The seasons are born and die. The sun rises and sets. Your smile is no longer mine alone. My heart is too small to bear so many losses—to be born again with every sunrise, with every season, and to hope for your smile, meant only for me. To be close to you.
I tried to find oblivion in physical pleasures. But I exhausted my body with lies and pretence, with the illusion of the moment and the pain of creation. Yet I endured it all. To be close to you.
