I am like a museum in
which everything is kept. I am a living museum under the open sky. It
is quite unique. I still pulse with hot passions that remind me of
past losses and future victories. In me, life has already gone half
way, but I am still far from the end. Far from the end of
immortality.
I am like a museum in whose basement the spirit of Adam and Eve is filling the space. The spirit of sin and disobedience. The spirit of forgiveness, which is neither wanted, nor given. The department of Adam and Eve is full of temptation and drama. I am an example of God's anger and love. I am Eve, an ancient measure of weakness and strength. I am a rebellion against prohibitions and rules.
I am like a museum where there is an archeological hall of physical growth and small victories over the body. In this part of the museum is my body in several sizes. Innocent size when I still believed that words meant what they were saying. Then I still believed that freedom is our primary right and duty, and that nothing can make us feel fear because we are born fearless winners, not slaves. This is not a fault of the child's body, but of the world outside the museum, which is a projection of our fears.
Then there comes a body that has grown up enough to get to know love. A body that progresses ahead of the development of the heart. When the body makes love, the heart remains cold. Because the heart is developing at different speeds and in other dimensions. It does not need to touch the body to know that loves it. My body keeps memories of wounds that are living warnings of betrayal and forgiveness. Every part of my body remembers and knows things.